Thursday 5 February 2015

Day 40!

My mind is messing with me today....

 I think I miss my friends.  I've been isolated for too long and I don't have any "sober" friends besides the blogging world.    I ran into an old friend who talked and talked about her life, all the partying she's doing....drinking, going out, dating, laughing.....

 And I said nothing.  Just listened. 

 It was a busy day and I'm exhausted.  

 Staying focused for tonight. Drinking isn't an option.

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5 comments:

  1. Ainsobriety6 February 2015 at 01:06

    It can be lonely in early sobriety. That's where AA or other group recovery meetings can be helpful. It gets you out.
    Otherwise, invite a friend for coffee. I was surprised at how much fun I had not drinking.

    Anne

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    1. Sober Mommy6 February 2015 at 19:04

      Thanks Anne. I looked up AA meetings for the week....I think it's just what I need. I'll keep you posted....
      I'm going to have a good sober weekend! Xo

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  2. SoberMomWrites6 February 2015 at 12:44

    This is a really hard nut to crack in early sobriety. Everything sounds so glamorous when you're talking to your former drinking buddies. You miss the idea of hanging out and laughing and talking. You feel lonely and REALLY left out.

    Now follow that thought...follow it all the way to the end of the night...follow it to the look on your kids faces when they know you're drinking again....follow it to the next day when you're hung-over, tired, sick and short-tempered with your kids...follow it to the obsessive brain that starts saying more, more, more...follow it to your other blogs and read what's there.

    It only sounds good from the inside. In reality, it's your own personal hell.

    Sherry

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    1. Sober Mommy6 February 2015 at 19:06

      You're right Sherry! I don't want all that shit anymore....I think it only sounds good on the outside.....my inside doesn't really want to drink anymore. I'll be heading out to AA meetings this week to find some answers....xo
      Have a super sober weekend!

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  3. SobrietyRising7 February 2015 at 10:15

    so proud of you Jen!! You are hanging in there and taking the right steps. If AA gives you a good 'connection' and helps you keep the 'reality goggles' on to see why that whole happy hour scene is just a big delusion, then great! Just hang in there, you are doing so well. You are an inspiration to me!

    Hugs,

    SR

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