...on Surrendering

If I don't surrender on a daily basis, I live a turmoiled, gotta be my way or the highway life...which doesn't work for me....which actually led me to my drinking days.

We all want to be in control of everything.  We all want it and we can't deny it.  When things don't go our way, what happens?  Fear, anger and resentments set in.  We lose our serenity and our spirit becomes ill.  I felt this in the past few days.  Ill.  Like, what the heck is wrong with me and I want my pink cloud back ill!  I'm a work in progress.

By surrendering to God (my Higher Power) every morning, I am able to look at my life in a different lens.  I become more grateful for everything in my life.  I become more aware of my surroundings and the people that I encounter.  I learn to accept things as they come.  I am more peaceful.  ..... and I have to let go and believe that everything in my life is happening for a reason and I am right where I am supposed to be.  

Accept.  Let Go.  Every day.

AA meeting last night...amazing.   There is so much power in going to AA meetings.   So much spirit.  What a gift I have been given.  

Reflection of the Day (taken from the Daily Reflections for AA members)

Today, I am no longer a slave to alcohol, yet in so many ways, enslavement still threatens - my self, my desires, and even my dreams.  Yet without dreams, I cannot exist;  without dreams, there is nothing to keep me moving forward.
I must look inside my self, to free myself.  I must call upon God's power to face the person I've feared the most.  The true me.  The person God created me to be.  Unless I can or until I do, I will always be running and never be truly free.  I ask God daily to show me such a freedom.  

I surrender.