Daily Reflection

Today, my son asked me if I would drive him to his friend's house.  My immediate response was no and I explained that I just didn't feel like going out today.  It was cold outside and I just felt lazy.   

He ended up convincing me to bring him and told me he would sleep over there so that I didn't have to pick him up later in the evening.   He was so happy to go to his buddy's.  He's in the stage of loving having friends around him.  I was glad that I brought him.   I knew it made him happy.  I assured him that I would pick him up, even if he needed a ride at midnight and he was content and grateful.  

When I got back home, I did some thinking.  In the past, I wouldn't bring my kids to their friends unless it was during the day, before drinking time.  If they wanted to go out later, I would say "No....I don't feel like going out today."  I knew that bringing them to their friends would mean I'd have to pick them up and that would mean....no wine.   

I was selfish.  I made sure I didn't have to drive anywhere on most nights.  

It feels good to know that I'm able to drive anytime, anywhere now.  I don't have to immediately say no when my children want to be with their friends.  I don't have to immediately say no when my sister wants me to go to dinner.  I don't have to immediately say no when a friend needs me to help with an errand.

I feel blessed to be given this gift again....the gift of recovery.  I feel blessed to have great children who I will always love unconditionally.  I feel blessed that I have God to guide me and keep me balanced.